As a man thinks in his heart....

God has been bringing this verse to me this past week.  As a man thinks in his heart so is he (Proverbs 23:7) Just this simple statement to me brings such deep revelations.  Much more than I have time to go into right now. Our thoughts are what creates. When I ask myself why I do the things I do, when I wasn't even thinking about doing them, it is because somewhere hidden in my heart (the unseen) there are heart thoughts about what I am doing.  For example, the light bulb in our bathroom burned out the other day and I didn't fix it immediately.  Throughout the day, I knew that the bulb was burned out in my head, but my heart obviously hadn't gotten that concept down yet because every time I went in that bathroom, what did I do, I attempted to turn the light on.  When the light wouldn't turn on, I would think to myself, why am I trying to turn it on when I know it doesn't work? That seems very stupid of me. Then it dawned on me that there went my heart otherwise known as the subconscious operating my life again. I think about how our subconscious heart is so powerful, how it basically steers the course of our life because we make most of all our decisions in life out of it.  Lately, I have been making a conscious effort to operate out of my conscious instead of my subconscious, but even as I do that, I always end up just doing things because it is in my heart to do it, without even thinking.  So then I began to wonder, what is it I really want to change if I am always going to be living out of this subconscious part of me at least for some of my day?  I realized the answer was in God's word.  (It always is, we just have to seek it out).  Romans 12:2 says, "Be transformed by the renewing of your mind" The answer is to continuously put the truth of God's word into my subconscious mind or heart.  Today I was feeling a little bit of failure as a mom, as my daughter started to get a temperature, but I am choosing to not let any thoughts of failure in my mind or heart because God has said that I am made righteous through the blood of Jesus.  I will not let the enemy have any foothold to open the door.  God's word says if you submit yourself to God and resist the devil he will flee from you (James 4:7).  A lot of times as a mom the accuser can come in and accuse me that I was not good enough.  At least this happens to me sometimes, I don't know about you.  But the truth is, I am not good enough by my own works, but I am perfectly good enough through my faith in Jesus.  I am choosing to always resist this thought that I am not good enough, from here on out.  God knows my intention is to be the best wife and mom, and he knows that I live in an earthly body that does have limitations.  By no circumstances will the enemy open this door again!