Today has been filled with chores, grocery shopping and some play time. In the midst of all the busyness, my thoughts have been on many different things but one single thought that continually pops in my head is how people get what they want in life. As a mom, one of my primary jobs is to teach fruitful thinking to my children. When I say fruitful thinking, I mean thinking that will produce success in their life. As I go about this job, things come up in my life that I become newly aware of. For example, if I hear my children blame someone or something, that is victim thinking and it doesn't produce fruit. Taking personal responsibility and becoming authoritative in changing a situation for the better is fruitful thinking. If I find my children have victim thinking, where did it come from? Most likely they learn by watching what their parents do, so I must take responsibility for this. It is not something that I have done intentionally, but none the less it was done. (Most of our life choices are actually made by our subconscious) It is one of my goals to step outside myself and look at how I live my life. How I make my choices and then after I am more aware of how I operate, I can take the necessary steps to improve those choices that aren't producing fruit in my life.
While I am becoming more self aware, I think it is also important for me to find balance and not to beat myself up for any choices that aren't producing fruit in my life. God wants me to see myself as He sees me, which is through the blood of Jesus. Even in my own mistakes, I am righteous in His sight. Part of the victim mentallity which used to live in me (I am currently working on it), is finding a way for something to not work, just because it would be risky for me if it actually did work. For example, my blog is a little risky for me to be open and vulnerable and sharing my thoughts and it would be easy for me to make every reason in my head why I shouldn't blog, BUT I know that will not be producing fruit for me or my family, so I have chosen to just do it and step out and take my risk. Risks make life exciting anyway and I don't want to be boring afterall! So instead of coming up with reasons why the success I want in life, can't happen, I choose to come up with why they can.
In the midst of all this thought, I wanted to mention a couple of things about the kids. Yesterday Abbie complemented my cooking skills, which made me feel good, cause I am not always so confident in my cooking skills, although I am working on it. We also had some fun outside playtime yesterday and Abbie said, you'll always be my mommy. Well, then she followed that up and said I'll always be Timmy's mommy and by I'll she meant Abbie. This is one of the other things we are working on. She thinks she is Timmy's mommy (I guess girls have that motherly instinct in them). So we are working on letting her know she is the big sister and gets have fun and play with him but not tell him what to do like the mommy. Another fun thing is Timmy's birthday chair came in the mail. I'll have to post a pic of him sitting in it soon. So far he has enjoyed sitting on it and reading but hasn't figured out how to climb on it himself yet.
Well that's all I have time for today, hope to post some more in the next few days:)
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