dealing with pain in the past

I am sitting here, remembering my mom.  I do have to say that I miss her and part of me has been running from sitting still long enough to have any memories.  I remind myself that it is okay to cry but I am not so sure it is okay to run from ever thinking about it to escape my emotions.  I am sure every person on earth can think back to something in their past that would bring them painful memories, the thing is I just don't want to recreate in my life the things that were created in my past.  History does have a way of repeating itself.  But God never ceases to amaze me and tonight I just meditate on these scriptures:

Philippians 3:13-14 ESV

Brothers, I do not consider that I have made it my own. But one thing I do: forgetting what lies behind and straining forward to what lies ahead, I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.

Isaiah 43:18-19 ESV

“Remember not the former things, nor consider the things of old. Behold, I am doing a new thing; now it springs forth, do you not perceive it? I will make a way in the wilderness and rivers in the desert.

2 Corinthians 5:17 ESV

Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come.

You see my faith in strong, I have a belief that you cannot mess with about the creator of this universe.  I may not be able to articulate my belief as strongly as I feel it, but it is something that has been revealed to me through many series of events in my life.  I must admit, I had my own share of trust issues and I am still working through some but when I let go and put my whole and complete trust in God without any doubt, He ALWAYS shows himself faithful.

So nights like tonight, when I have a sadness in my heart for something painful that happened on this earth, God fills my heart with all that I could ever need and comforts me that I can use what was meant for evil to bring good into this world.

I am a strong believer that there is way more going on in this world then we (even the most intelligent of humans) can understand.  And so one of my all time favorite scriptures is

Proverbs 3:5-6

New International Version (NIV)

⁵ Trust in the Lord^(A) with all your heart
    and lean not on your own understanding;
⁶ in all your ways submit to him,
    and he will make your paths^(B) straight.^[a](C)

 I love how this verse is so simple yet so profound! You can apply SO many life situations to this one verse and your heart can be calmed.  Writing this blog and reminding me of these truths sure did calm my own heart and I know what God does for one person He will do for anyone.